This Green Tea smells like reefer.
I don’t smoke, probably because it reminds me of you. I keep that too myself. But I continue too sip away on this tea, because the memories of you are just too sweet to stop taking in..
Damn. I wish this tea could take me back to you. With you.
So we could be how we were.
That refeer. The two weeks we were searching for some weed and had to smoke on hash.
But it didn’t matter because the car ride is what I cherished. Holding your hand while you cursed the people who didn’t come through with the tree.
Riding down 18th or was it 19th, I’m trying not too remember. The thought of you is just too much. We would circle around for hours too find parking. I can feel the freezing air on my face right now. I’d step out of the car and wait for you too walk around and grab my hand. We cross the street to Starbucks. Walk straight, i would walk too the wrong door. You’d laugh. All the San Francisco doors look the same. But you, you were different. We walked into the house, cold like my heart at the time. But you did the best too warm it up. And we warmed up under the sheets with your hash and our bodies together. The portable heater rotated around us. You always layed right behind me. Put your cold ass feet inside my legs. Cloud nine laughs and giggles over nothing. Making sure we set the alarm too wake up for work. Your fifty alarms. Trust me, I knew you. I loved those little things. I hated that I acted so rude. My heart wasn’t ready for your perfection. You’d watch the office while my eyes got heavy. I never remember falling asleep with you, I always drifted. It was peaceful.
And if I could get a chance to treat you better, I’d take it. And I’m sorry I didn’t appreciate your wittiness. Your effort. That perfect smile. The insecurities you shared with me. The hash you’d share with me. The nights sleeping in our thoughts, separate thoughts but you held my baggage the best you could.
The walk I took for two hours debating if I would leave or stay. Jhene and wale on repeat. As I waited for you too get off work. I walked up and down that street with my Starbucks and Canon. You dont understand how hard that choice was. I walked up and down 18th or 19th. Turned a few corners. and tried to gather my thoughts. You were the only reason id ever stay. But the timing was against us. probably from the beginning. I wish God had us in his plans for each others future. Damn, this green tea is just too much for me…